Choice

Perhaps it won't make any sense to everybody else but me. At least now.

To understand what I am talking about, you have to go inside my freaking complicated mind.

And here are what you'll see :

If I can stay, I will.
If I have to go (and somehow I know I won't have any other choice but to go), I (hope I) will go to where I wish for. I hope I will have the power to choose.

Can I choose?