Recipe for Emptiness

I know my morale has been so down low these past few days. I remember Mom a lot, I miss my sis a lot, I miss the warmth of a family as a family (if you know what I mean), and I have been crying a lot. Every where, anytime.

Escaping to eating was one alternative, something that I've tried hard to avoid. Experts say, eating is a way of solving one's problem but it creates others. I couldn't agree more.

I have done the house hold work until I am completely tired. Office work seems to be another solution. I have classes that also take up some of my time and energy. The preparation is a bit easy now since I don't have to teach everyday. I think I finally have time for myself.

And then, there's that social network. And this one. I haven't visited this one for a long time. And there's this one that I am currently active in. I find it very practical and easy to connect with friends, old and new. I busy myself by doing link searching and posting them for those who need them, commenting statuses and knocking on people's walls. I don't do games or applications. I don't do adding new friends either, except if they are recommended by a friend.

Hanging out with friends is another way of keeping my mind off the crazy ideas. Many people think that I am a socialite because of the frequency of meetings I've had with people. Hmmm. Socialites enjoy being together with a large group of people. Me? 'One on one' is the best way to catch up and get to know each other (all over again). Talking or doing activities outdoor or indoor, unlike socialites, is my preference. And I don't do talks about money, possessions, jobs, or positions. Traveling to remote areas with just a few T-shirts and a pair of jeans is just a perfect way to learn about a friend, not to mention to escape from routines. I think I am not a socialite (I know some people may not agree with me ).

Ahhh, I wish I could travel again. I am saving money to go to this place. My friend says that August is the perfect time to go there. She says that the beach is just around her backyard. There is honey harvesting also during that month. So much to expect. I just can't wait.

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