The power of feelings to someone's body can be great. When one's body is covered by the feeling of hatred, sadness, pity, jealousy, anger, then the stomach hurts, the chest feels pressed, the neck narrows as if something tried to choke it, the head's spinning, the shoulders tighten, and his body would feel fatigue. Deep and intense fatigue.
To survive from that feeling (at least for the time being), one must kill his humanity. That would be his senses and emotions. Seeing but not paying attention, hearing but not listening, speaking but not from the heart, doing but not being himself.
Only then, I am not me and I could survive another day or two without making (further) damages to my own soul.
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uda gw praktekin n now i duno how to get back at me. salah lo tuh. ayo bikin postingan yang judulnya :How to reverse the process"I'm Not Me". Kakakakkak.
kalo kata national geographic,'let's get lost.' *ngga usah diajak juga udah nyasar.wekekekekek*
aaaah, you both will get used to it....
even if it's about your family? teach me how, please.
family matters?
Well, i wont say that i kill my humanity in that context. I just need to exercise my selective hearing-thus-feeling skills. Know when to look away, and know when to walk away.
Or else, i'll make further damage to them huehehehe
give me a realia, please. :-)
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