I know what's coming....

The day went quite well until there was a meeting i had to attend.... It was supposed to be a branstorming and a follow up meeting from the previous one. I normally enjoy this kind of meeting... but not this particular one. I knew what was coming... it'll be about promotion and target,target,target.... I am having an identity crisis.... can he see that? one foot in a place (a place with people who i know still need me) and another (a place that is a kind of no man's land).

There is something else....

Distant....
That was the aura....
I could not blame him.... I helped create the unfriendly atmosphere so when he didn't laugh when i joke around, it wasnt exactly a surprise.... I know whats coming....

Guess I still couldnt forget when he refused to help me. I am used to his refusals... but when he said a blunt "no" in front of a forum without any explanation last week, i just couldnt help myself from being angry.I slammed the door. He obviously knew how i felt.... But...did he care? I doubt that.

Cold....
Thats the response i decided to give when he asked me for a meeting.
So when he returned the feeling, no heart feeling....
I know whats coming....