Know This....

In the effort of not wasting our time in living our lives, it seems funny when your past becomes your hurdle. Even if it happened more than 13 years ago (which reminds me that I have probably hang out with the SAME PEOPLE THAT long. Hahaha.) Yes, you heard me right. Thirteen.

What happened back then was fast. It didn't take long for this person to 'make his move' towards me. He was the hunter, I was too naive to know but I played along. It's good to have a good friend, right? :-) Though it was quite intense, a real relationship was never established. He disappeared with no explanation leaving me with questions that linger for a long time Though disappointed with his way of handling this, I didn't ask him, I didn't want to push it. I always believe in 'What's mine is mine. God's willing.'

Later on I got the answer from a friend. After eleven years. Though I wasn't looking for closure, to know the reason got me relieved a bit because it was not that hard to take.

While I've got on with my life, so has he. I've never asked anybody how he's been doing after his marriage, the children he has had, etc. I was worried that I might ask the wrong person and gave everybody the wrong impression out of this act of friendship.

Then one day, I wrote something in the net. People wrote their reactions and these particular duo intentionally showed 'him' the thread. I was in awe. It's illogical from all different angles. For fun? A misunderstanding? A favor? Sorry, I don't buy that. It still doesn't make any of my sense.

All in all, I want people to understand that he's moved on. I have, too. I may be unhappy about many things in love but I don't think I would see him back in my picture. I don't need any more complication.